Welcome To My World Of Secrets

2008-09-27T08:50:00.002+08:00

its been 1 month 10 days i din blog bout anything. guess i was just too busy?
or should i say i was just simply too lazy.

today's my birthday but the feeling i have in me now just totally suck.
wad have i done wrong in my previous life to deserve all this bullshit?
u just dunnoe my feelings now.

leonard told me a few days back that i was lucky that i get to celebrate my birthday with friends whereas he was busy crying on his birthday due to some personal probs.

wad can i say? i noe how it feels like now. cos as i'm typing this, my tears just seem to automatically roll down.

just tell me wad have i done wrong.
haiz. :(

2008-08-17T20:30:00.010+08:00

i noe i noe. my blog super long never update le. thats y i'm trying to put all the pics together and post them.

hhmmmmm. today we celebrated daddy's birthday. went to this steak place at yishun safra. its like a franchise of jack's place. just that the steak CMI.
lols.

i went home K.O till bout 6 plus then shortly after that we cut cake!!
oreo cheesecake!! yummy!!!

haha. while waiting for my dad to come out, my sis went to put the pooh bear behind the cake. so it seems as though it was pooh's birthday. lol

and yup. that's my daddy alright. haha =)

full family pic! 1 of the few times we take such a pic together

yesterday went sentosa with jie. hhmmmmm. had a great time. just the volleyball cum monkey sessions with the bunch of strangers were a lil wierd. we even drank "bloody mary" with em'. lol. wad a yucky drink!!

while havin our late lunch, we decided to give firdaus a lil ring and see if he's wrking. and true enuff, he is. and he brought us in to watch the "song of the sea".
super nice. later part of the pics, notice someone wearing red. that's him =)

haha. and these pics below, are my bunch of silly friends. some emo-ing cos they already high from too much shisha. =)

haha. and there are also pics taken at leonard's place. notice ziteng with leo's dogs. lol. see his face ....

i like the top few pics. haha. leonard purposely ask "andy" to stand beside ziteng, and look at his face!! nice lor.

hahahaha. well, lazy upload more pics in le. next time!

2008-08-07T00:38:00.002+08:00

I'M SO FUCKING PISSED LOR!

FUCK SIA.

WAD KINDA ATTITUDE IS HE FUCKING GIVING ME?

BLOODY FUCKER!

I LIKE BOTHERED TO ASK XIAO JIE TO ACCOMPANY ME DOWN AND HE FUCKING HELL GAVE ME ONE KIND.

FUCK OFF LAHS!

U THINK U VERY GREAT MEHS?

I'M SO SUPER FUCKING GLAD IT'S OVER BETWEEN US!!!

I THINK I MADE A RIGHT CHOICE.

I NOW MUST JUST FUCKING HELL THINK OF SOMETHING TO ANSWER TO YOUR MOM.

U ARE SUCH A FUCKER LAHS.

DUN YAYA PAPAYA AND GIVE ME THIS KINDS OF SHITS!

I FUCKING HATE U TO THE CORE!

2008-07-29T04:38:00.001+08:00

hahaha. picture time!!!

finally after so long i've decided to be hardworking enuff to post pictures..
all these pictures are taken over prolly a week? lols.

anyway, just now i went to the singapore garden festival at suntec city with mummy and the 3 little piggys. here are some pictures taken there. taken with my N82. =)

haha. can u guess who that is?
the picture is made out of plants!

hhmmmmm. saturday daddy cook beef steak for everyone! so sweet right?
i love u daddy! =)

beef steak with fries and vege, mushroom soup and baked beans!

hahahaha. here are some ugly pictures i took of my dearest ex classmates on friday night. as u can see,there was an ice-shooting fight going on at khatib mac.
look at haoyi's face! lols.

after mac we headed to the playground near my place. the guys decided to show us girls some of the stuff they do in the army. like marching around and shits.
lol. they did managed to make us laugh and laugh all the way through.
look at sean, in both pictures, his hand forever pointing to other people. kelvin and gilbert decided to ignore him though. haha.

wha. look at the 3 of them. they look so "SMART"!
HAHA =)

but be4 that night's activities, our lovely friend iven decided to bring us out for lunch! we headed to new york new york at citylink.
sammy and i had the hawaii teriyaki chicken chop. looks delicious eh?

but after a while, maybe cos we were a little full, we decided to play with our food.
nice eh? our little monster! =p

i caught a candid shot of her looking around and not eating her food as she was kinda full. she like hardly touch her fish&chips.
food wastage!
babes, always remember the joke at new york new york.
bout the buddist gathering!! instead of the church gathering. =)

and the next few pictures were taken when mummy took leave due to some personal reasons. that day, granny decided to make durian pancake and mummy decided to make durian ice cream. just look at them, granny trying to open the durian near the basin with the help of an oven glove

mummy saw granny struggling so she decided to give her a hand. from basin to floor, they finally managed to open the durian! thank goodness. but it was a pity that the durian inside not much flesh. but i guessed they had fun? =)

after which seem like so much hardwork put in, we decided to sit on the sofa and relax. hhmmmm. can u see the 3 different generation sitting together?
me. mummy. granny.
see the hair colour difference!
hehehe. i noe i'm evil =p

yay!!!! finally finished posting all the photos. and mind u guys, these are just the few pictures using my hp. there are more pictures in the camera. but cos i din upload the pictures into my laptop, so maybe will upload the rest another day.

oh ya, was talking to dee just now, he left me thinking with this question.

"wads the point of having everything when inside is nothing? it is better to be nothing but have everything"

he said so many chim chim stuff which i couldn't catch. maybe its cos i'm just simply too dumb. or maybe cos he was so tired that he was uttering rubbish.

lols. bt wadever it is, it was educating talking to him. our conversation even have pokemon inside! so cute right?
aiyo. now 4.30am lerx. i better go catch some sleep. still have to meet my other group members at 2pm later at suntec city. hope u guys enjoyed the pictures!
feel free to comment on my tagboard!

2008-07-24T03:18:00.000+08:00

i'm back!

lols. blog rusty liaos.
i cant sleep! dunnoe y.
tired but cant seem to be able to force myself to sleep.

just realised, these few days noticed quite a number of ppl turning emo.
including myself.
sometimes i ask myself y humans are like that.
we can never seem to be completely happy with ourselves.
there's always something bugging us.

hhmmmm. a few other examples are like lucy, dee and ger.
1st 2 names i mentioned cant forget their ex.
its sad to noe that my friends are so upset.
i noe its hard to forget, but a wound will take time to heal.
all it needs is just time.
if you're not willing to give yourself time, it'll be hard.
perhaps wad u guys need is for yourself to let someone nice to step into your life and help u get outta all this shits.
who noes, u might thank yourself for doing the right thing.

dun because of 1 bad experience and u condemn everything.
i hope u guys recover soon.

no matter wad happens, i'm always here if u need me.

sometimes, people tend to take stuffs for granted, by the time we realise it, it's too late. but wad done is done, no point looking back.
look ahead and dun repeat the same mistakes again.

hhmmmm. tml then i post pictures. too lazy to do so now. =)

2008-07-14T01:08:00.002+08:00

i met him just now in the early evening.

haha.

as expected, forever cute.

lols.
he's able to make my heart melt.
hahaha.

i'm super dead. i've nothing much to contribute to the assignment.
die lerx.

haha. pray hard i wun die in a horrible way! =)

2008-07-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

argh!!!

i'm getting nowhere at my assignment.
so hard to find information bout the history of adventure tours in aussie.
damn it sia.

how??

2008-07-07T01:30:00.002+08:00

yay!!!

my piercing finally recovering.

after so many days of liquid diet, i now can eat normally.
just that have to chew real slowly.
haha.
if not the stud will get in my way.

my tongue is still a bit swollen though.
but better than on tuesday when it was SO SWOLLEN!

anyway, i came across this.

One year ago, on this very night, i wept with u, they were tears of joy.

One year later, on this very night, I am all alone,memories,fills the still night..

And today,on this very night,where are u wandering ,alone in this miserable night.

Today, when u look back do u still remember

do u..

still remember

u & i

......

it's kinda meaningful but sad.

oh well.
anyway, i'm like onto my third assignment lerx.
time really pass so fast.
so fast that i can hardly catch up.

this time round my group will prolly do on some adventure tour on aussie.
so difficult as u noe i'm not really into adventure stuff.
so it's gonna be tough for me.

my Entrepreneur exam results will soon be out.
so worried.
dunnoe if i'll do well anot lei
well, i'm just gonna pray hard.

hopefully the results will be wad i want!
i go sleep lerx. tml got sch!!

2008-07-04T02:31:00.004+08:00

haha. i noe i super slow.
now then update the photos.

budden past few days super duper lazy lar.
psps.

i think i not gonna put up the pics we took of our lousy food but show the 2 great group shots.

as u can see, the top has sammy and i and the bottom with jasmine, catherine and her friend eddie.
this one eddie took of us lost in arab street. we dunnoe where we're heading. lols.
u can see jas busy smiling away. i just love her smile. so mesmerizing =)

enough le lar. haha. blogger takes a super long time to upload pics now.
that should be a good excuse!

me *signing away with all the dots around*
lols. secret between sammy, cathe, jas and i.

2008-06-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

just realised that i haven't updated my blog for a long time.

muahahaha. just a bit lazy.
got the photos from cathe le. but i update another day bah =)

take care everyone!!

2008-06-26T05:25:00.002+08:00

whee!!! today was such a fun fun fun day!!

went to liquid kitchen to have dinner.
had peach frappe, fish & chips and mushroom soup.
the soup and the fish was a disappoinment though.
but who cares. hahaha.
with great friends and stuff, we'll not really bother bout it too much.

after dinner sammy and i ordered cocktails and cathe ordered a mocktail.
we had sex on the beach and she had shirley temple.
haha. then after that jasmine came!
finally after waiting so long.
when i saw her i was like "OMG! she's so damn fucking chio lor!"
lols. so envious sia.

after slacking around we went to arab street. SHEESHA!!!
lols.
the sheesha was kinda wierd cos not smooth enuff.
then we were like chatting like some bunch of k-poh bitches sia.

so many many stuff to talk bout.
at first we were kinda shy talking to jas.
budden after warm up, we like non-stop talk and talk lor.
from 1 topic we can like talk till suddenly talk bout other stuff.
super funny.
but it was fun.
super super fun!
enjoyed myself to the max.
did take a few pics budden i guess i'll wait for jas to send the pics to cathe then i'll post them up all together =)

its been a long time since i had so much fun!
hope more of it will come =)

2008-06-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

yay!!! my F&B exam is finally over!!

so glad sia.

FINALLY AFTER WAD SEEM LIKE FOREVER!

hhmmm. friday after sch went to bugis with lucy to get some stuff from watson. then came across this cute little girl by the fountain. she was having lotsa fun playing by herself. and the best part was that she was naked. only having her tiny panties on.

super surprised cos the weather was kinda chilly. budden i guess that din stop her from enjoying. kids nowadays super lucky.
dun u think so?
managed to capture a pic of her =)

after getting the stuff that i wanted from watson, i headed home to continue with my revision. then when i was home, nana showed me her new mirror. shaped like a cookie. and i found it so adorable that i started playing with it. then my sis went to fish out for her hp and took pictures of my retardness.
lols. there is another retarded pic of me biting it budden i think i better not post that pic =)

and then saturday my grandparents went back to malaysia. sad. hopefully they enjoyed their stay here.

so sat morning, i had to wake up early so that i haf enuff time to prepare then send them to the airport.
at the airport, we went to swensens to eat some ice cream. we had the giant earthquake. haha. 8 scoops of ice cream topped with hot fudge. yummy!!
i forgot to take pic be4 we ate the ice cream. budden i took the empty bowl though.
lols

after airport, daddy say he'll bring us to the giant at tamp to get groceries.
lols. everyone took advantage of it and we were like on a shopping spree. haha.

we spent like $125 there. lols. kua zhang right?

after the trip to giant, we headed home. then i got nothing to do then took a pic of myself with my shades. the pic is blur budden at least can see my ugly face.

ooooo. and guess what? daddy made dinner for us that night!!
so sweet of him.
lols.
he went to grill steak for everyone. too bad mummy din join us for dinner.
hahahahaha. the sirloin steak, baby carrots and fries look yummy right?
lols. we also had mushroom soup to go along with it. =)

enjoy the picture of the black pepper sirloin steak!

muackiiex!! =p

2008-06-23T04:17:00.002+08:00

haix. i just finished studying like 10 mins ago. this suck lor.

i dunnoe why i last min chiong also.

but just no motivation to study this module.
the lecturer never give us sample papers to try on.
i'm so stressed!!
argh!!

i'm worried i will flung this module.
how how how?

and i gotta wake up at 6.30 later to continue my revision.

sobs~

2008-06-19T23:02:00.007+08:00

happy birthday mummy!!!

lol. mummy's 49 years old le.

haha.

mummy and her 4 children. haha. too bad daddy wasn't around

my beloved mummy and i =)

us and the birthday cake

the birthday woman and her cake

oreo cake. budden dunnoe y got this funny funny mint taste
argh!!!! monday's my exam!!!
help me!!!

2008-06-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

hahaha. today was an exciting day.

my group had to do our presentation after break.
lols. it was pretty scary as i was the first speaker.
actually not really scared la.
cos i always very talkative. hahaha.

our project is about setting up a restaurant for babies and pregnant ladies.
haha. its quite interesting though. =)

budden even be4 my group went up to do the presentation, the babes in my class decided to cam whore. lols. like as though today's the last day of class.
hahaha. i decided to post some here.

haha. tada! these are the the few babes in my class. lol. all siao siao one. =)

some more pics of us. just that here and there got diff ppl missing. haha. only the top one got more or less the ladies in class.

everyone in class very friendly. except for rachel and becky. they more anti social.
obviously they're not in any of the pics.

then the 3 of us decided to take together. from left is me, jollis and then martha.

all the picture taking started out with the both of us. we were busy taking pics with my front camera when martha they all decided to follow.
lol. anyway, she's no other than doris. the babe i was talking bout in my previous post. bout her having to juggle between work and studies.

haha. then i decided to take pic with raj at the end of class. he's the most handsome nepalese in my class!
lols. he looks better in real life though. cos he nvr smile much for the photo.

hahaha. after class lucy jio me to watch kungfu panda with her.
she crazy one sia. this is the second time she's watching it. and she's still so excited. haha. i also went to take my GV member card. nice right?
finally i managed to watch kungfu panda le. 1 down and a few more to go.
i wanna watch the hulk and you dun mess with the zohan.

haha. anyway, the other day went to raffles city with mummy, ah ma, kuku and nana then i saw this car. haha. i tot this kinda cars only exists on commercials. first time i see it. haha. i noe i very sua ku.

ooooo. 1 more hour to my mummy's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!
I LOVE U LOTS LOTS.
i no money buy pressie but i promise u that the best pressie u get will be my results. =)

2008-06-17T01:22:00.002+08:00

i noe this sounds crazy

BUT I JUST ATE DURIAN

WITH A FORK!!

haha. funny right?
i think i am the only one who does that.
lols

and now when ever i burp, the durian smell will come out.
heh heh heh.

and my mummy made durian ice cream again!!
yay!!

tml evening can eat ice cream le!

so excited =)

2008-06-16T02:13:00.000+08:00

haha.

I LOVE MY HAIR COLOUR!!

i like have 3 colours on my hair.
i've got copper, red and yellow colour on my hair.

and guess how much i spent on my hair?

$230 only lor!!

super cheap right?

my rebonding costs $90
hair dye was $30
highlights costs $50
and my treatment costs 60 bucks

and i got 1 bottle of shampoo and conditioner.

so i guess its all worth it.
dun u think so?

well. to a poor fella like me, i think its worth it.
budden i spent like 9 hours at the place just doing my hair.
lucy's hair was shorter so hers took a shorter time.

u should have seen the amount of treatment cream she put on my hair.
haha. guess maybe cos my hair too jia lat lerx.

budden i really like my hair colour. i hope that the red colour will not fall out when i wash my hair tml. lols. i hope it stays. =)

noe something? friday after school i accompanied lucy to buy her ipod at tekka area. haha. that place is full of indians. kinda scary when they stare at u. haha.

then after buying her ipod, she tell me say she wanna buy psp. lol.
so i brought her to sim lim square to get it.

she hor, very naughty lor. go there and "bio" guys. haha.
super cheeky.

she buy psp also must see the sales person whether or not he's handsome not.
lols. and there's this guy whom we wanted to get it from.

budden he damn bloody hell lor. we were like talking to him then he was like playing the stupid wii. FUCKING SALESPERSON. BLOODY HELL!!!

then in the end we went to another shop which sells it $20 more.
budden lucy din mind so it was okay.
as she found that guy super cute. lols.

and in the end she spent close to $800 IN A SINGLE DAY!!!
hai. rich ppl is always different from us.

yesterday after doing my hair i met sammy for supper.

we were like super hungry so we ordered alot of food.

we ordered indian rojak, prata and popiah.
haha.. alot right?
well, from our size u can tell.
lols

we went to resident's corner to slack afterward.
we were talking and talking away.
after that i ask my daddy to send me back. lol. that was my father's day gift to him.

hahaha. i noe i am mean budden i dowan to waste money take cab home mar.

then i reach home at bout 2am then was chatting on msn with kent till bout 4 plus then he chase me go sleep. cos i had to wake up early to go church.

then i woke up at 7 plus. then that kuku dave called me suddenly at 7.04am.
and u noe the reason y he called?
its cos he was drunk!!!
ass hole.
and the best part is that he din even noe that he called.

WTF right?

haha. when i went to church with mummy, pat, nana and daddy, after mass father edward went to ask my daddy whether or not he has considered his offer to be zone leader.
lols. then all of us were like giggling away.
FATHER EDWARD ACTUALLY GAVE MY DAD A COPY OF HIS BOOK THINGY!

i really hope my daddy will take up the offer.
seriously.
we'll help him with it.
we promise!

after mass i went back home to sleep. haha. too tired lerx.
then went to ah ma's house to see her. haha.
i missed her so!
i miss her cooking!

after that we went to the same restaurant we went during mother's day to have dinner.
and surprisingly the restaurant not as crowded.

lols. this goes to show how important mummys are to daddys.

haha.

and now, am talking to that stupid dave on the phone. and he's like blasting all the nice nice songs on the phone.
he's trying to distract me from blogging.
so mean right?

lols.

he already sent me quite alot of songs budden still got so many more lor.
think 1 month also cant send all thru msn. lols.

i stop here le. i wanna go enjoy all the music le.
=)

2008-06-13T16:10:00.002+08:00

haha. now in class having lesson.

teacher telling grandmother stories while i am here typing and lucy's looking at what i am typing.

ooooo. first time doris never come school. haha. guess she must be super tired.
poor girl. she has to juggle between her studies and work.

she's actually working night shift at mount elizabeth hospital. from 9.30pm to 7.30am i think. its like WTH lor. lets say she finishes wrk at 7.30, and she reaches home at about 8am. she sleeps for 4 hours till about 12 plus then she gotta get ready for school. school's from 2pm to 5pm. after school she will take a short nap then go to work.

aiyo. imagine your life is like that. completely no time to relax and enjoy. her life is only wrk, sleep and school.
so what if she has 2 off days?
1 day is for her to go to church and there's only 1 day left.
sleep whole day also wun be able to recover back her lost sleep.

i guess this time round she really cant take it. thats y she never come to school.

sometimes i really think there are so many people out there who are far worse than me. and to think i keep complaining and complaining bout my poor poor life.
i think my life's better.

i dun haf to work and study like how doris does. the only thing i'm still unhappy bout is my allowance. haha. i really dunnoe how that kinda money is able to cover me for 1 whole month. hai. maybe i really must go home everyday straight after school.
OR MAYBE I CAN CONSIDER FINDING MYSELF A SUGAR DADDY!!

haha. that is also provided anyone would wan me. haha.

and another thing. i din noe my class majority of them dunnoe that i had extensions. hahahahaha.
was having a good laugh when i saw their shocked faces.
u should have seen it.
you would have laughed your ass off.

lols.
so excited.
am gonna do my hair tml with lucy!!!

haha. i'm more excited bout the hair colour and highlights.
after getting my hair done i shall take a pic with lucy and then post it here!

ooooooo. so excited!!!!!!!!!!
time better pass quickly. haha.

tonight cannot sleep liao.
heh heh heh.

the best part of today is that i managed to fool martha!!!
whahahahaha. she was busy scolding me and scolding herself.

she called herself stupid which i dun think so lor. haha.
just that maybe my extensions too real le. lols.

sorry martha!

i just simply love them to bits.
and my babes too of course. =)

2008-06-11T22:14:00.004+08:00

i just reach home after watching Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian.

hahahahaha. its such a nice movie lor. funny one too. lols.
watched it at Shaw towers, Lido. haha. and the best part of it is that the movie tickets are only at $4.50!!!!!

lols. mummy's company sponsor the rest i think. hahahaha. budden hor, the things there like the popcorn and drinks are like super cheap lor. just pay $2.50 and u get a super big cup of pepsi. =)

there are so many movies i wanna catch. i wanna watch kung fu panda, the incredible hulk, you dun mess with the zohan and many more. haha. just suddenly so siao over movies.

and i'm gonna get my golden village member card soon!!! haha. movies every tuesday only $6.50 lor. and so many more privileges!!!

and the member card super cute! haha. its shaped similar to the cup of popcorn. haha. after i get the card, i take pic and post it here. hahaha.

yay! am gonna do my hair this saturday. still wondering wad colour should i dye and highlight.
was thinking of copper dye and red highlights. dunnoe nice anot lei. haha.
budden still very excited!!!

hahaha. which means i'll need to say goodbye to my long long hair le. sad at the thought of it though.
sobs~

guess i'll prolly haf to wait patiently for my hair to grow again. stupid QB house. stupid hairdresser.
i promise i would NEVER go to such a salon EVER AGAIN!!

sad lor. today i heard from lucy (my good friend in erc) that she and her 7 yr bf just broke up. hai. why so sad sia? y are guys all bastards and jerks?
just that small minority are good guys. haix. 7 years lehs!!! not 7 days or 7 weeks or 7 months lehs. its 7 YEARS!!!!
WTF is wrong with him?
lucy's such a nice girl lor. and she chose to give up her arranged marriage by her mom by coming to Singapore to study so that her bf will stand a chance once he returns from aussie.

stupid lor. i dunnoe how to describe his stupid acts. he must be fucking horny and despo for sex to choose another gf in aussie la! BASTARD!!!!
FUCKING BASTARD!!!
HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO LUCY???

no amount of words can describe the hatred i have now.

.......

2008-06-10T22:48:00.007+08:00

oooo. today i went to school as usual. took 54 from newton. and i took this bus.
and the seats inside super cute. its like a mini pub. designed to promote the Nokia music edition phones.
the seats are super comfortable. haha.
took a few pictures of the seats. din manage to capture the high chairs cos it was at the front.

i boarded the bus and guess how long it took me to reach school?
1 whole hour. Damn it lor.
1 hour stuck inside the bus. 1st time so late for school. stupid sia.
if it wasn't for that damn bus, that stupid ang moh wun have had a chance to borrow my pen and write something on a piece of paper and handed it to me.

eeyer. the thought of it gives me the chills.
hahaha. if only it was a younger ang moh. i might have considered msging him. lols. =)

when i reached home, i argued with my bro over my laptop. he finally gave in and asked me to put 1 of the mask i have on him.
think he wants to look after his face le. lols

I GOT THE SUDDEN CRAVINGS FOR SUKI SUSHI AND SAKURA!!!

ANYBODY WANNA GO FEAST WITH ME? =)

2008-06-10T01:07:00.003+08:00

haha. ain't it cute? super cute lor!
haha. just simple love the face =)

my new tattoo. nice mar?
haha. done by mr dave =)

2008-06-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

wth. i'm now supper slack lor. this current module really suck.
how do u expect me to practice for my module when there are no sample papers?

heck la. anyway, those people whom are suffering from depression should come find me. i got this friend which will make u laugh non stop. serious lor! and this person is no one else but dave. hahaha.

he is like able to make me laugh and laugh non stop in the middle of the night lor.
i'm just waiting for the day the police come up my place and complain bout me laughing too loudly. lols.

going to school is a chore. the weather these few days is freaking hot and i think it'll kill me sooner or later. muahahaha. the only thing which motivates me to class is my classmates. they are super cute lor. at first i was kinda upset that my class very little Singaporeans. budden now i find that it is quite cool lor. its something not everyone will be able to experience.

OMG!!! i still have another 2.5 years of studies to go. am i able to perservere? i hope so. i dunnoe if my family will have trouble paying for my school fees anot lei. 30k lehs. its really not a small amount lor. i really must buck up! i cant put all this money to waste.
i still wanna work in the tourism and hospitality industry. hai. budden how to work hard for my F&B module u tell me?

i can only depend on my assignment now. guess what? i've got 2 F&B managers in my group. cool or what sia. tee hee hee.
this is so cool lor. am gonna start on my assignment tml le. my stress is gonna come back again lerx. how u tell me?

haix. this feeling sucks la. assignment here i come!!

today was supposed to watch kungfu panda de. budden kumar last min say he got fever. hai. guess i'll need to find another khaki to watch with me lerx.
anyone wanna volunteer to watch with me?
lol. =)

2008-06-08T01:59:00.002+08:00

life is really boring!!
lols. saturday was spent at home sleeping, talking to people like dave over the phone and worst of all, i bought myself a x2 exp card. and i was like busy chionging since 3pm till now. and i am still not done. haha. i told myself i had to chiong to lvl 60 asap.

dunnoe y suddenly i so siao. its been over 10 hours and i'm still playing maple!! argh!!
wad a boring life i have. haha.
actually alot ppl ask me out lei. budden i'm just simply too lazy to leave home.
maybe its just cos i dowan waste money by going out.

i go back chiong my maple le!

2008-06-06T01:26:00.000+08:00

argh.. these few days nothing much to blog about. nothing exciting happened. just simple day.
wad a boring life i have.

oh. 1 thing's for sure, last night met sean and his friend shah around 10 plus.
he drove me to sammy's place. GOSH!!
dun even think bout sitting his car sia. can have a heart attack!
haha. met sammy at the residence corner at her place. we exchanged cables for the mp3.

lols. then slack around till sammy suggested prata. haha. then we went 515 for prata!
its been a long time since we last went there. lols. budden the prata guy and the kopitiam aunty still remember me lor. so sweet. lols. they can even remember what are my favs. hahax. this goes to show how sociable i am.

hahaha. after prata, shah decided to take over the wheels for the short distance to sammy's place. haha. boy did i laugh my head off.
he's not used to manual driving then we ended having a jerky journey. hahahahaha. SUPER FUNNY!
its been a long time since i laugh until lidat. which is good. that goes to show that i'm becoming the old jessica again.
thanks guys!

lols. this pic i tot it looked kinda cute. its nana playing maple on my laptop in my room. haha. also dunnoe wad inspired her to put my fav pillow on her head. hahaha. as u can see in the background, my room is super small and messy.
lol. =)

i really wonder if i had done anything wrong in my previous life.
y are my relationships so sucky one?
haix. am i fated to not be able to find my mr right?
sian sia. i just hope i wun die be4 finding him =)

2008-06-04T03:51:00.002+08:00

I JUST HAD A BAD BAD NIGHTMARE!!!
WOKE UP CRYING!!!
SOBS.

dunnoe wad's the reason behind it budden i have a super bad feeling bout it. i just cant help but think of it.

i cant go back to sleep =(

2008-06-02T11:22:00.003+08:00

lols. these few days lazy so nvr blog. lols. so many stuffs happened.
friday met andy and his friend under my block then we headed to 848 to slack.
they went to have their super late dinner while i sit there and drink barley.
haha. then slack around chit chat.

Sat met bernard to have lunch and went to catch a movie. watched sex and the city. haha. nice show. funny with lotsa sex scenes.

budden its more funny then RA. lols. while walking back to city hall station, i saw weili walking past. haha. said hi to him. he was pretty shocked. like as though he saw a ghost.

muahahahaha.
night time went to zhengde's place. he's daddy's birthday. and also he going into army lerx. so we had a meet up. all old friends.
slacked around till about 12 plus 1am then decided to go Orchid Country Club go play pool. haha.

budden be4 we took a cab to OCC, guess what i saw? something real disgusting. something which sammy shouted at me to watch out. something which made me scream and jump about. lols.

hahax. its 2 snails having sex. haha. on a pavement.
wad a horny couple.

lols.
we left zhengde's place at 6 plus together with min hui and kelvin.
sammy and i took a cab while the rest walked home.

although the group at zhengde's place a lil quiet. budden it felt great to just do nothing and play poker cards, talking to old friends.

was too tired on sunday till i slept though the morning and afternoon.
skipped church. haha. had a nagging from mummy. lols.
and now, gonna go bathe then get ready for school. so warm today. lols.
see if hardworking anot.
if hardworking, will blog later. =)

2008-05-30T07:11:00.003+08:00

YAY!!! finally finished my proposal. after so long!! haven't slept a wink yet since i woke up at 11am on thursday. so sleepy!! now waiting for mummy to check my grammer then sleep for 2 hours then gotta wake up again to go bookshop and bind my proposal. super rush.

GOSH!! FIRST TIME SO HARDWORKING FOR SCHOOLWORK! someone please give me a pat on my shoulders and say good work. =)

argh!!! i better get good grades. if not i'll jump down and die.

i go sleep lerx. blog again later ~

2008-05-29T04:03:00.002+08:00

this is driving me nuts. the deadline for my business proposal is tml!!! argh!!! i still got 9 segments not finished. its like the last 9 difficult topics i couldn't handle then leave for the last.

haix. how? i can extend the deadline for another 1 week budden i dun wanna do that lei. the more i delay the lazier i get. will i be able to touch up on the others later?

i wan to get all of this done asap! every night i get headaches. i mean REAL HEADACHES!! and its not nice 1 bit at all lor. i keep sleeping in the wee hours of morning for the past 2 weeks. i dunnoe y but i put in alot effort in my proposal budden it never seem to finish.

argh!!! all my white hairs are coming out. is it because i want my proposal to be perfect thats y i spend so much time on it? this is really killing me. oh crap!
and guess what?
my new module is on F&B and the lecturer's very straight. read and read. talk and talk.
and we are like copy and copy at what he's writing on the board. u can tell the class are all falling asleep.

and the next BEST part is that he informed the class that our F&B assignment might have 2 parts. individual and group work!!!
like 1 is more than enuff to kill me!
aiyo. the though of it just pisses me off.
sian.

i wanna watch sex and the city.
i wanna see stars.
i wanna be rich.
i wanna go shopping.
i wanna have fun.
i wanna go sentosa.
i wanna slack around and do nothing.
i wan back my beauty sleep.

there's just so many stuff i wanna do.
in short, I NEED A BREAK!

will u be a kind soul, take me out and let me have fun?

2008-05-27T00:03:00.001+08:00

MY BUSINESS PROPOSAL IS DRIVING ME INSANE!!!

THERE'S STILL SO MUCH LEFT TO DO!!

sians. sometimes how i wish i was dead.

2008-05-25T16:00:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! i saw him twice just now!!!
my heart nearly dropped out. haiyo.
then mummy, nana and patrick kept making fun of me!!!

ARGH!!! so paiseh sia. omg omg omg!!! hai. its been 2 years plus le. the first time i spotted him was at the church carnival. i remembered telling mummy bout him. but she just laughed it off.
haax. this is the first time i admire a guy until so long. haha. the only thing now is that he doesn't noe bout it. we're just normal friends. he noes that i exist budden we dun talk to each other face to face.

whenever i see him, my face will just turn red. as red as a tomato. haha.
how i wish i have the courage to smile at him and just say hi. budden each and everytime i fail to do so.

oh well, forget it ba.
guess fate's just not there.

oh ya, its been a few days since my last entry. thursday went gym with yin wah.
and guess what? after gym we had pizza. lols. super funny lor. then i bought a box of 12 donuts from edonuts for my family to eat.
look at the pic below. looks yummy right? haha.

yesterday met sammy at novena for lunch and a sugar overdose treat at Ben and Jerry's. haha. then as usual i bo liao so take picture of the table.
haha. cute right?

haha. this is my ice cream. i had phish food, sweet cream and cookies and strawberry cheesecake. my 3 all time favs. it was topped with hot fudge and m&m chocos. =)

this one is sammy's one. she had phish food, cookie dough and chunky monkey. topped with caramel sauce and m&ms. =)

this is the empty bowl. used to hold my waffle and ice cream.

after ice cream, we decided that 3 scoops too much le. haha. too sweet. budden nvm lor. already say its sugar overdose treat le. long long time once nvm.
and the best part of it was that i din have to pay a single cent. haha. i only had to pay for my lunch at Hans. ice cream was paid by sammy.
lols. after ice cream we went to super-cuts. sammy needed a hair cut.
her hair was cut by this cutie named vincent. he was super friendly and i like the colour and style of his hair. thats y he's a hairdresser i guess. =)

reached home at about 8pm then while waiting to have dinner, i took a few pics. lols. pics of myself as well as with my mummy and sister.
the one at the bottom is obviously me. =) trying to act cute. failed attempt again.

miss jessica and miss patricia.
she's the only one amongst the triplet who is willing to take pic with me.

and this is my beloved mummy!! pretty right?
haha. alot people thought that she's my sister cos they say she look young.
got mehs? eeeyer. bleahs.

haha. after taking pics then went to have dinner. indian rice with mutton and acha!! got papedum too. haha. everyone was like trying to steal mine cos i kept the best for last. haha.

spotted 1 of my long lost ex boyfriend on msn. chatted with him for while then he asked me to call him. so we chatted on the phone till 3 plus i the morning. lol. i'm just glad we're still friends. been 4 years since i last chatted with him too. there was just so many stuff to talk bout.
hhmmm. have to think of a day when we're both free. meet up for dinner. guess there's alot of catching up to do =)

2008-05-22T11:06:00.000+08:00

yay!! i finished my exam smoothly yesterday. though i completely forgot bout 1 entire question, i'm just glad that what i've studied came out. all this is thanks to ms maha. she gave us lotsa clues and hints as to wad will kinda questions will be tested. initially i was really worried. worried that i would forget everything once i step into the exam hall and screw everything up like wad i did in BMC.
but its now all over. i managed to remember and i gave it my best shot. now i really have to focus on my business proposal. my exam will be 50% and my proposal will be 50%.
hopefully that later when i come back after my gym session with yin wah, i wun be too tired to continue on my proposal.

haax. oh ya, yesterday after my exam i went to eat buffet steamboat at marina square. the place is called hotpot culture. the only reason y i went there to eat is because of the free flow chocolate fondue. hahahahaha. budden the steamboat not bad la. lols. normal steamboat where u can order side dishes like fried items and pre cooked items.

and guess what? free flow of steamboat items, free flow of fried and pre cooked side dishes, free fruits, free marshmellow and lastly FREE UNLIMITED CHOCOLATE FONDUE FOR ONLY $19.80++ PER PERSON!!!!

amazing isn't it?
i got to noe of this place on some channel 8 programme where they tell u where are the places selling cheap and good stuff and how much money u can save as the places they recommend sells stuff cheaper than others.
oooo. had a good time there. i got tom yum soup base. it was a lil spicy budden i was perspiring like shit. maybe its because of the heat coming from the hotpot.

took a few pics of wad hotpot culture was selling. u guys can go try out the food there. price are really reasonable. =)

this was the menu given

the 2 individual hotpot. 1 is tom-yum the other is some herbal soup.

this is 1 of the fried side dish i was talking bout. it is prawn wrapped in bacon. kinda salty though

this drink not free flow but its nice lor. made from real fruits. no added sugar.

haha. the chocolate fondue looks nice hor??

haha. although it looks kinda funny budden who cares. the chocolate is their secret recipe. homemade by lady boss. i only managed to find out that the chocolate is dark choco. super nice that we had 2 rounds =)

aiyo. have to drag myself to the gym later. whole body still aching from all the exercises. mon went jogging with family, tue went swimming with bro, today going gym with yin wah and i guess my sat and sun sure will kena dragged by my sis to go jogging with her!!! aiyo. all this is FORCED one. budden i guess they're doing this for my own good. who ask me to be a fatty. lol =)

2008-05-21T00:34:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!! I'M HAVING MY EXAM LATER ON! CAN I MAKE IT THROUGH?

so worried i will forget everything that i have learnt once i step into the exam hall.
its been a long time since i took my last exam in BMC academy.
help me!!!

oh ya, he called me up just now. sounded strange. dunnoe wads up with him. sometimes i ask myself, why is it that it seems like i do not understand him 1 bit at all? he actually said that i'm like a master and he's like the dog.
am i really that nasty? hai. this sentence had been in my mind from the day he told me all the way till now. if he really felt that bad during the time we were together then y din he initiate for a break up? until i brought up the break thingy then he say such stuff.
it really hurts to know that someone whom u loved before can say such stuff.

sad sad sad ...
stressed stressed stressed ...
=(

2008-05-20T01:02:00.003+08:00

argh!!! i'm giving myself a 10 min break from all the mugging. it is killing me.

i'm really worried i will not do well in my exam lehs. how ar?
i must prove to everyone that i can still study hard. i cannot let everyone look down on me.
i've sacrificed alot for my studies. all i hope is that by doing so i can excel.

i still have my business proposal to finish up by the 30th may. will i be able to complete it in time?
i hope so!
God, please make me be able to swallow down what i've studied so that during my exam, i'll be able to vomit everything out.

hahahaha. i noe its silly to describe it in that manner budden i can't think of another sentence to relate what i'm thinking. lols.

2008-05-19T02:06:00.002+08:00

haha. i too lazy post pics of the steamboat supper lerx. haha. since not very nice also so suan le.

after the steamboat i had a good chat with him. we managed to sort things out, which i am glad.

we're still friends who'll still go out together and stuff. =)
i go sleep lerx. very tired. blog again tml. hopefully i'll study hard and those which i study will go into my pea brain. lols

2008-05-18T04:29:00.000+08:00

here are some photos taken at sammy's place on friday night and saturday morning. dunnoe wad to type too. too many stuff happened these few days. until now it still seems like a dream. am i dreaming?

king and queen of gambling. king observing his cards while queen dreaming of what to do with all the money won. haax

ziteng was taking pictures so i decided to smile and strike a "cute" pose. apparently it sucked. lol

kelvin ar kelvin. u no childhood is it? happily playing at the playground.
haha. my gosh, wad is ziteng doing to xiao jie? he seems to be pointing at jie.
"wanna fight ar?"

problem settled. lol. AND KELVIN THINKS THAT HE'S A MEMBER OF THE POWER RANGERS! hahaha.

cute bitch hor? haha. she's 12 years old already. old but adorable. but i think the other bitch carrying the bitch is cuter. lol. no offence sammy!

oooo. another bitch carrying the bitch. lol. =)

this other doggie is handicap on 1 leg. poor thing. guess how old he is?
9 years old!

cath's dream store. hahax. selling kisses?

OMG! WAD ARE THIS 3 GUYS DOING SIA? SO OBSCENE!

kelvin toh chee heng. the ti ko pek in my class. lol. i miss those days during dnt lesson. =p

ziteng, wad u doing?? wanna sabo someone during the game is it?

wha. king of gamblers showing us a trick or 2.

what the fuck? wad u doing to sammy's fan ar?
=p

oooooo, and lemmie tell u a secret. ZITENG IS SUPER AFRAID OF COCKROACHES!!! haha. when he sees 1, he's the first one to run far far away. further than the girls. lol. and the day was saved by the other guys. =)

the whole time was kinda fun. we had alcohol, poker cards and most of all there
were friends! but while playing poker ziteng had a taste of his own medicine. catherine keep shooting back at ziteng for all the stupid remarks he give. catherine wan sui!

the pics taken with ex more than words collagues will be updated later. now too tired lerx. =)

2008-05-16T11:13:00.003+08:00

oooo. yesterday too tired to blog so today wake up early to do so, be4 meeting my babe. yesterday was my last entrepreneur lesson with ms maha. heard that she might be teaching us for principles of marketing. yay! budden to play safe we just took pictures with her as a momento. heex.

as u can see from the pic, she's on the extreme left, followed by the ugly me, then martha and finally lucy on the right. haax.

i just dun understand y people are complaining bout ms maha's lesson. is it because they dun understand or because they just dun like her and her teaching style? haax. i can never understand.
budden who cares. lol. i just do finish my proposal and study hard for my exam can already. =)

whoohoo. yesterday night got tom yum soup!
superbly nice. haha. then my stupid sister dowan put the pic on her blog so i steal lor.
teeheehee. =p
oooo. and there were lotsa nice stuff to eat. haha. i started eating first at 6 plus budden ended up finishing last. haha. who ask me wanna watch tv and eat. as u noe, i'm a sotong who cant multi task. hahahaa. then my stupid maid laugh at me.
she's an idiot!

lol. i went to MUSTAFA again! hahax. reached there at 1 plus in the morning. i had to check out the price of certain stuff for my business proposal.

haha. then after we left at around 3 plus, we saw this cute car parked directly outside the side entrance of mustafa. haha. it looks like my brother's toy car. lol.
super cute till i had to take a pic of it. i guess its some car brought over to singapore from another country. cos the car seem old budden the car plate is new. haax. must be some rich man's son's car. lol.

guess what? have u heard of a plate of chicken maggi goreng, 1 teh aliya ice and 1 coke zero costing $9.50?
haha. daylight robbery sia. the name of that place is Ma Raj Restaurant. haax. so people beware. think twice before u eat there! =)

yay! i'm gonna go bathe now. meeting my babe at kk hospital in a while. so excited!
cant wait to drink at night. haha. enjoy your friday night guys! =p

2008-05-15T01:17:00.002+08:00

yay!! friday night going drinking! at last.
but we'll be heading down to sammy's place since we still have chivas there.

well, as long as there's company and alcohol, i'm fine with the location. =)
later's my last day for my entrepreneur lesson. i'm gonna miss ms maha.

she's such a great teacher. serious! and she'll help us when we're in doubt.
just that i think she'll faint when she marks our exam paper and our business proposal. hahaha. it sounds easy to do a proposal, but in fact, it's tough. i'm still stuck in my calculations. whereas the rest are ahead of me. i better catch up if not i'll lagg behind.

*still dreaming of my fairytale ending* =p

2008-05-14T02:17:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling much better now. credits to kumar and sammy.
thanks guys!

i'll put into consideration wad u guys told me. =p

21st is my exam le wor. scared sia. lol. worried i'll do badly.
budden i'll give it my best shot!

1 thing i wanna do now is to go drinking. its been a long time.
i'll probably go drinking with my babes. since there's no one else to jio.

haha. its feels great to have a lil stuff off me.
oooo. ah ma's gonna make her famous "ba chang" later.
i'll be in for a treat.
dumplings anyone? =)

2008-05-13T14:33:00.002+08:00

i'm lost
i'm trapped
i cant seem to be able to get outta it
i feel like dying
i feel like crying
i feel like shit
i feel so negative bout it
i dunnoe why i feel like that
is it because of school?
is it because of relationships?
i feel as though there's no one out there who truly understands me

i'm super stressed
i'm super tired
why am i feeling like that?

thats not me!
thats not the jessica i once knew!
where am i?
wad is it which makes me feel so lousy?

i want to find back the old jessica
the bubbly, cheerful, optimistic, always laughing loudly in public and funny jessica
where is she?

is she really trapped in her own world?
can anyone please help her get outta it?
sobs =(

2008-05-12T15:02:00.002+08:00

i'm super sleepy now in class. haiya. these few days never have enuff sleep. thats y a lil grumpy now. sian. i never touch a single homework and proposal the past 3 days and yet i still not enough sleep then now look like some panda bear.

sian!! i cant handle all this stress! someone please help me!
guide me outta this mess please! shoot me with a gun and let me just die =(

2008-05-11T23:57:00.001+08:00

happy mother's day to all mothers out there!!

lol. we went to sit the singapore flyer just nw! its fantastic lor. u wun even feel giddy or anything cos its really going very slowly. serious. u guys have to try it some day. oooo. after flyer we went to have dinner at a seafood restraunt at serangoon. the total bill was $150.30 budden the lady counted it as $150.

my daddy insisted on paying budden i say i pay. then we were like fighting to pay. lol. funny sia. then in the end i say i pay $100 then the rest he pay. =) dinner not bad but got alot people wor. lucky we arrived early. the people wrking at the restaurant seem pek chek with each other cos they were like practically shouting at each other. haha. goes to show, too much stress will make a person go crazy.

lols. i haven't touched a single schoolwork since friday. be it my exam revision or my business proposal. i never do sia. sian. dunnoe y i super slack. lols. must chiong le lor. thursday my last day of lesson. then it will be self-revision time till 21st may which is my exam. argh!!! can i make it through? i hope so. anyway, i'm gonna post a few pics for u guys to enjoy. =)

the "ATAS" singapore flyer entry ticket.

top view in the flyer. cool eh =)

the inside cabin.

taken at the bottom ground level

the seafood dinner receipt. =)

2008-05-11T12:15:00.000+08:00

haha. guess what? i just saw him!!! after so long sia. some more in church.
lols. i was like telling nana its been a long time since i last saw him. then who noes, after a while i saw him!! my heart nearly fell out.

OMG!! argh!!!! this whole thingy started out such a long time ago. haha. budden dun have the guts to tell it to him. i'm such a coward. lol. budden who cares, just admire from afar lor. its enuff to make me smile. =)

2008-05-11T01:45:00.000+08:00

haha. as u can see here, the before and after of my dinner at the akashi japanese restaurant at paragon. haha. nana, patrick, kuku and i had yaki niku and pat had chicken cutlet. lols. its nice! serious.

today lotsa things happen wor. after i came home from town, i quarrelled with him again. super sian lor. wads with his fucking temper. say so many lan jiao stuff then in the end expect me to forgive him with just a simple sorry. forget it man. dun give me this kinda bullshits. i cant take it.

argh!! i've had enough. wads with him?

i really wanna end it all. i cant cope!

with all this rubbish schoolwork and stuff, now he adds on to it. fuck!

super angry and tired. enough is enough. my tolerance level is already to the max.

dun add fuel to the fire.

sian. why lidat sia. is it like what he say, no more feelings towards it already?

is my mentality really like that now? i'm so confused!! someone please help me!

hai. forget it lar. no point blab and blab bout it. i need to cheer up. i dowan this to affect me. i want to be able to sleep later. =)

oh ya, after coming home just now, i felt a lil zhilian then went to take a few pics. this one's the best. i love it. =)

2008-05-10T11:30:00.000+08:00

this is shitty. i slept at 6am and guess what?

by 10am everyone was all over me on my bed.
this sucks. super sleepy now yet cant go back to sleep. nonsense sia

argh!! i think i'll try to go back to bed. =(

Finally !!

2008-05-10T04:15:00.000+08:00

at last i finally created a nice blog with the help of catherine. thanks babe!
haha. bet she must be screaming in her head cos i'm such a dummy. lols.
cant blame me lor. i nvr go listen to wad the teacher is teaching during OA lessons.
so yea. anyway, the weather is like super hot lor. nvr see why i cant sleep and ended up deciding to create a blog. i see sammy and cathe's blog super nice so i told myself i too must have at least a simple one. =)
so many people ask me why my msn's personal msg says "life is unfair. why do mean girls get all the good guys? and why do good girls get all the jerks?"

i thought that sentence sounded true. isn't it? i always envy lovely couples walking around hand in hand. my life doesn't seem to be like that.

y? y? y?

but nvm la. at least i noe that wadeva happens, i still have my babes by my side all the time. at least thats comforting enough. =)

babes, if u guys are reading this, from the bottom of my heart, i wanna say a big thank you. thanks for everything. =p